Handwriting.

My new handwriting is specifically hard to read. It's much more mysterious that way. It's also got little swirls over the words to save time in care of t's and i's. No more dotting/crossing!
Changing my handwriting is just a process of my personal development, in a way. I'm getting tired of being the current "me" and inside I'm ready to try out a new role. I have the feeling she's gonna be a lot more emotional but  she's still going to be super sarcastic. I have to much fun with that to let my favorite hobby go. I'm still going to have the same interests, I think, but apply them in different ways. I'm going to develop my art a lot more, maybe focus a bit less on being "perfect" and become more "with the flow". I need to take out my sewing machine and get cracking. I'm getting materials for my sister's dress soon and I hope it'll be gorgeous. In a way though, I'll be more precise, just in a free form way. To be honest, I have no idea  what I'm gonna be, I just know I'll have fun.

Words.

I love words. And numbers. They have so much more meaning to them than people think. Most people think a word has exactly one definition, but to me.. It has so much more. Every word has a different, indescribable meaning. When I try to describe words, I get so caught up in the emotion that each word has.. it's amazing. So I'm going to define some of my favorite words.

Whimsical - An airy, bright-hearted sort of adjective. It's floaty and melodious, like a a daisy and rose bouquet. Slightly unconventional, with a bit of a crazy edge, but softened by the sheer fun and playfulness of it all.

Illusion -  This word is slippery, like silk. It folds and twists and covers meanings. It's a bit sad, 'cause you know it'll disappear eventually, but it's lovely all the same. It reminds me of how eyes can be used oh so very well to cover emotions and reveal them.

Palpable - It reminds me of something like a putty mist, something that you can grab and hold onto and bring close and shape how ever you want. I always think of writing with air whenever I think of this word.

Genders.

**This is completely generalized and does not represent my view on ALL males/females**

Girls are annoying and manipulative. They enjoy "drama" and gossip. They're always playing games with everyone; even their own friends. They think that waiting for "Prince Charming" to come along is the best thing to do and want males to do the hardest part of a relationship: starting it. They attempt to get males to ask them out by using silly rituals and flirting. They stab each other in the back and enjoy said stabbing. It really irritates me. They flounce about with male they don't "like" in order to get their target "jealous". Of course, some males engage in this behavior too. But, for the most part, females are the ones who cause the most drama and mixing of signals.

Most guys have no idea what girls are doing. They don't understand that most girls do not really want what they are asking for. "Tell me honestly" is the perfect example of this. Most guys do not realize at first that this means "Please lie to me so I'll feel better." Unfortunately, many of them learn this lesson quickly and become so abused that they can not tell a girl something honestly anymore; they automatically lie to make them feel better. They don't understand the complicated double meanings of almost anything a girl says. "Do you think this dress makes my butt look fat?" is really "Do you think my butt is fat?" in most cases. 

I am a girl. Girls in general irritate me. Go figure.

ICE CREAM.

Holy. Chunks.
I HAVE 3 CONTAINERS OF DELICIOUS ICE CREAM IN MY FREEZER.
Butter Pecan - Vanilla - Strawberry (With chunks of real strawberry)

I am going to go on an ice cream eating craze.
It was $2/container at ShopRite.
I was so excited.
Ice cream is one of my favorite foods. It's a creamy confection of sugar, fat, and awesome flavorings. I can't wait  to consume it. :D

Nerds.

How I love them. And, seeing as I am one myself, this makes sense.
Nerds are basically awesome because they are smart and love nerdy things like the computer. There are three types of nerds actually: Nerds, Wannabe Nerds, and the "I'm-not-a-nerd-I-swear" Nerds.

The Wannabe nerds are just annoying. They pretend to know how to 'hack' things and think 'hacking' is guessing someone's password and writing dumb stuff all over their facebook account. No. This is not hacking. There are also Wannabe Nerds who pretend to be awesome at science and math and enjoy throwing big words around (And they have no idea what the words they are using mean). When faced with a wannabe nerd like this, often called a Know-It-All, a true nerd will use their words against them, because they actually know what the words mean.

Ex:
Wannabe: I'm basically the expert at my school on photons and how they affect the gravitational pull on earth from the sun.
Nerd: Photons are light. They don't have enough mass to affect any gravitational pull on anything.

The "I'm-not-a-nerd-I-swear" Nerds are nerds who are embarrassed of their nerdiness and pretend to be normal. Unfortunately for them, everyone* sees through their 'normalness' and they are made fun of more often than actually nerds.

*Everyone except for really stupid people

Nerds who are not Wannabes or "I'm-not-a-nerd-I-swear" Nerds are the best people ever. They have weird senses of humor and feel free to do whatever they want and not care about 'popular' people. They probably actually do have friends, whether they are online friends or IRL friends, contrary to popular myth. This is a shout out to all you nerds out there: STAY NERDY.

Formspring.

It's so stupid. I kept on waiting for someone to post a rude comment on my profile or whatever so that I could mock them. Is that too mean? Probably. But I finally got my wish.

"why do you type so weird? like bees? like wtf.."

 and then this one, after I made fun of them:

"u act like such a know it all. it is really annoying. you talk down to people so much. u act like u r smarter than everyone. it's obnoxious. so stop correcting people on everything! (also stop acting like u dont care about anything)"

They think I'm "obnoxious" and "weird". I LAUGH. This is the type of stuff I live for. I wish people would insult me in real life so that I could have fun.

Friends.

I 
Art is our life.
Friends forever;
Nothing will get between us.
Too bad you never grew up.
Who's to blame?
I'm not sure;
I tried to help, but you didn't care.
Onward we march.


II
Quiet, secret smile;
You may be 
The sweetest of the bunch.
Endless hours of talking about life;
Your romantic dreams make me smile.
You can be insecure;
I'm sure you know
Deep down inside you're loved.
We drifted;
I see you and smile.

III
Silly, crazy exciting.
That's our type of stuff.
Endless talks of food and sugar;
Bouncing around;
Psychotic and adorable.
You went in search of greener pasture;
Must've found them.
I hope you're happy, I miss you.

IV
I know you;
Almost.
You can't seem to tell me
Exactly
What you need.
And I can't either.
We freak;
(Well, mostly me)
And talk of nonsense.
I'm glad I managed to snag you.

V
Oppositely similar;
So very different.
You may not understand me,
But I know what you're trying to say.
You're laughter and winks
Could charm anyone you wanted;
They just don't know it.


(Please don't take this literally.)